I am learning to let go a lot of negativity in my life and it feels good. This might be lengthy but bear with me.

These are all things that described me, notice the use of past tense.

I was the girl who if you burned me, I would burn you back. I was quick to pop off and yell, scream, and win the argument-whether I was right or wrong. 

I didn't trust people because  I quickly learned that most people were untrustworthy, but as humans I know now that we are not perfect and mistakes make up our life. It's how we grow and learn. I didn't see the point in making permanent relationships because I had the kind of mentality that people come and go as quick as you can blink. Now while this mentality of mine is true, I failed to realize that the bonds I made with these people last forever.

I always harbored hate, disgust, and anger...these emotions were my first skin, there was no second skin. 

You wouldn't have known was underneath even if you tried. On the outside I had to be sane and okay. While underneath I was confused and hurt. Then I didn't understand how there could be such thing as wrongfulness on this earth.

 But I grew from my experiences, I was not raised to be the type to break easily.However, even during these times I always strive to help others, I never made someone feel as low as I felt, and I always smiled. I took what made me angry, hurt, and scared-I put those emotions to good use or so I thought. I used those emotions as fuel for me achieving things to prove others wrong. But then I realized, I have nothing to prove to no one on this earth! 

I used poetry as an outlet to heal me, it literally saved me from doing a whole bunch of stupid things. I became a friend that others could tell their secrets to, I would be there with my ears and an open mind. I didn't judge people harshly, because I wouldn't want to be judged. I strive for the positive in life, and use it to inspire others.

 I'm not going to lie there are times when I feel the past breathing on my back, but I take out my fan and keep it pushing. There are better things in life that needs far more of my attention, for example my future. Just thought I would share this with you all.

-Sincerely Fay,